It’s early morning on my first chemotherapy day. I was awake
at just after 3:00am and didn’t feel like I was going to get back to sleep. I don’t
feel worried about the treatment, but can’t really stop thinking about it. We have
had several weeks’ notice so I am actually looking forward to getting on with
it.
We have had a six weeks now since the diagnosis which has
given us time to get over the initial shock and panic. We have both returned to
work now and are starting to try to get back to some sort of normality. I have
actually only been back for one day and now will of course be off today for treatment.
They are being very good at work with no pressure to return before I am ready
which helps. My approach now is that I want to work as normally as possible during
my chemotherapy treatment but who knows what that will be? I had a long chat
with my boss yesterday and said that in a best case I will just need a few days
off for the actual treatment, in the worst I might not be in for 18 weeks. In reality
it will probably be somewhere in the middle.
Having had time to recover from the initial shock, I have
made a conscious decision that I want to make the best of every new experience
and try to find the humour in every situation, (I hope to post a chemo selfie later
with my new found selfie skills). I am sure there will be some low points along
the way, but we need to make sure there are plenty of smiles and laughs to
balance them with.
The good wishes from everyone has helped enormously and I would
like to thank you all. Needless to say that I could not be doing this without
my gorgeous wifey – Bim. Dan and Ellie have been great support as well.
Hope to add to this later today.
